Sobriety was something I had previously thought to be unattainable; the anxiety of life too much to bear without substance, without alcohol. I needed it for almost anything and usually there was no stopping me from obtaining it; and always wanting more. A vicious cycle of dependence which could not be broken. Thank god I was wrong.
I am currently 8 months sober and the benefits have reached and blessed every aspect of life. I have less anxiety, less illnesses, less arguments, less confusion, less injury, less financial burdens and I could go on forever. Most importantly I have accepted buddha and my sobriety go hand in hand on this path that I have chosen.
There are so many ways to conquer demons of which used to control my life. Im finding myself in meditation everywhere I go and every day that I stay. It is very important for my day to day balance to practice the teachings of various meditations and perhaps my writings can lead others to finding a healthier balance in life regardless of religious belief or path.
Thats all for now.
This is another day to be happy
No matter the yesterdays and tomorrows
Meditating away sorrows
There isnt a second of this second to borrow
I embrace; breathe peacefully transcendent
Counting my blessings
Addressing the necessary lessons
I have chosen a new path
Walk with me because to me this is clear as glass
Fasten your seatbelts life is fast
Never knowing how long youll last
Remove the masks evil and self doubt
Life is like a prison , but im with ya
Help you out
Its been a very long time since I have been away from WordPress. Id like to come back to this and reintroduce myself. My name is Nina and I’m 31 years old. Im a Buddhist, a step mother, an artist and a trans woman. I started this blog while living in a homeless shelter many years ago and I can remember walking across the street to the coffee shop to do my daily blogging every morning. I had originally thought i would simply write about living on the streets, but. It became much more than that.
Im returning now as many things have changed. I got married and am looking after a young one. I am sober. For the first time in my life. Something like 8 or 9 months. It has been easy but it hasn’t. I am very thankful for this morning; an opportunity to speak and place another step on this path. The path of buddha, sobriety, motherhood, art and most importantly love.
Im not sure where to begin but I suppose I already have. So since I have been gone; budhism has truly become my path. I have realized there is no place for alcohol in a buddhist. I see the dhamma now as the only path to be on. I am also a visual artist. A graffiti writer and painter. I am shocked and happy to say that art is my profession yet am still but what you would call the starving artist. But I am happy.
Sobriety was taken away from me by the age of 13. So 17 years of usage which is more than half of my life and pretty much the entirety of my adult life. I have found new ways to enjoy life, to cope with pain and anxiety. As i write i feel like the lotus blooming from the mud.
Hello everyone. Im here again. Im back
Ive woken from these dreams a thousand times
But still it instills vibes
Clearly i came from a dark place but now awake
And let the sun cascade
Let the dhamma enter
Illuminate from the center
As there is no flowers without rain
We all rise again
Walking this path I count my steps
Carefully count my breaths
Walking straight and mindful
Vowing to bring fourth kindness
Drawing another breath I focuss
The simple motions
Eliminating negative emotions
Om nami padme hum
Loving living lotus compassion
Grant me the needed wisdom to encapsul
So i may bring joy while my steps
Carefully counting every breath
Thank the universe for I am born again
Electricly conduct positivity
For my breath breathes the white light
I am calm and at peace with my storm
Born again I thank the universe
I do not act drastic only compassion
Incredibly blessed; no stress
Buddha dhamma awaits; I’ll taste
The roots of ginsing in the morning
Reflect and cleanse any bad
Any sad I replace it as a lesson
And let myself grow; as I let it go
Pursuit of happiness; no grasping it; just be
I’m just me; sitting in the lotus
Meditating to infinity
The story really begins now
Im finally in now
I can’t explain how
Deep this feeling is
And what it really is
Peace love compassion
Thats my reaction
To war or hate crimes
or the evil that’s in fassion
I motivate, cultivate for the family
By any means necessary
I learnt some lessons clearly
Now everyday I wake up
And count my blessings in me.