When dreams and reality mix; my mind twist space n time.
Sentences in my mind incomplete and jumbled.
The pain is unbearable and I can’t focus.
The thought train is overwhelming grandiose negative paranoia.
I lose track of myself and memories begin to be erased.
Chase down 3 seconds of comfort; only refuge from this place.
Alone with my screaming demons, what is the reason.
Enhanced senses, feeling too much and too deeply.
Dreading the next breath I’m light headed.
Subconscious embedded schizophrenic essence.
Tears run down my face, my lover can’t help be afraid.
Interlaced emotions continue to confuse, I’ve lost my view.
Distrusting earth, corrupting everything I’ve seen from birth.
There’s nowhere to run or hide. I continue to gun this fight.
I’m a soldier fuck this shit. I’ve done this shit a hundred times.
Switch my mindstate from afraid to irate.
I’m right the world is Fucked Up…
I’d Love to make it better tomorrow just weather this storm.
This isn’t even real, what I feel; it’s chemical sorrow.
What good is a good day without bad ones. I’m attached to this aura.
I’m glad I can come out on top….
I was trapped and caught up….
Strapped to a mattress and shot up…