Everything is falling apart; but everything is coming together
Destroy and rebuild; rebuild and destroy, Yes I endeavoured
I created a world and left it behind n I…. Still shine.
Creating a new place; place n peace of mind n I’m
Suffering uncomfortably then suddenly…
Blissful in nothingness*
My 3rd eye moonshine remove I from crude times..
Zen bends my lights to the contexts that I suggest
So the world is mine and I am simple sublime
Construct my life obscuring obstruction
Its my life; I play like a conductor
N My heart beats like percussion
And I’m not scared to die like life is nothing
But I die to live; my life is mine to give
Forgive me for living like what I got to lose is nothing
What would you expect in this time of glutton?
Life is something.
I wish I didn’t get sick on the daily
I don’t want to wonder what this pain is
In my stomach
I don’t want to wake up in agony
I don’t want to be scared of what that may be
I wan’t to be normal again
I wan’t to be in control of my day
I hate feeling like this
Feeling like shit every time I open my eyes
No answers from doctors every single time
For four months; I throw up when I wake up
With no clue what its a case of…
People keep calling me pregnant and its getting old
I wish! That would be a miracle and a gift!
This is a curse;
Ive never dealt with a sickness that troubled me worse
I got to get to the bottom of this
Find out what the damn problem is
Im SICK AND FUCKING TIRED of…
Tears running down my face
When I was living on the streets I decided to do something special for myself one day. I went shopping at Capilano Mall 3 blocks from the shelter. I had been trying to save money but I was extremely depressed, buying this definitely cheered me up. Although! I felt very childish buying kitty ears toque with attached kitty mitts. I never would have thought it would make me suck a peacock, but I liked it. I’ve never had so many complements on a piece of clothing in my life… catching girls taking pictures of me on the train and sometimes up to 5 times a day people stopping me to tell me how much they love the hat. It definitely kept me warm as well in zero degree temperatures while I struggled my way out of shelters and from a ice cold R.V. to the beautiful home I have today.
Diz iz muh hat.